"Better be late than never"

It's been a very long time. A very long time since I last visited my own blog. I am laughing at myself, looking at all the posts I have ever put up here on my blog, thinking how immature I have always been. But with all those childish things, I know I have been learning things about life and love. Thanks again for Chathuri and Awanthi, through whose blogs I remembered that I had created this blog a long time back, and I am here again, may be to share my thoughts about life, for all those who would stop by here for a minute.

It is always difficult to find and link words, when it comes to write your own story. It is always a question where to start and how to end; should I write all the truth, or shall I hide something? I am going through the same situation right now. With all what has happened to me, there are few things that I would keep for myself, or may be shared only with my parents and husband.

So - yes, I got married. But not to the person I have been talking about throughout this blog since I started writing. I know it is little weird, but it is the truth. To add on, I think it is not a thing to hide since almost all the people I have been knowing, know that I didn't get married to him. But I should definitely mention that I love my husband, and I mean that from all my heart.

Now - I found the start for my story. I was in love with 'him', for a long time, a love that cultivated in my mind, grew up in the same dark corner and happened to die without seeing the light. When Chathuri talked to me about Jacob Black in Twlight, I thought he was the Jacob in my life. But reading in real about the character, I would say, he is not. For some reason I thought I loved him. I tried to get his attention on me through so many stupid things all the time. But I know that, above all, I was his best friend, and he was mine too.

Yes - we were the best of friends, but no one ever knew we were. We knew each and everything happened in our lives, we knew each and every feeling we had in our hearts. I have cried on his shoulder, and he has too. He has shared every little bit of his life with me. But they were all unknown to others, just like my love for him.

Life does not always give us what we ask for. I have heard this;
"Live will say YES and give you what is good for you; It would say NO and give you something better. When life says WAIT, it will be giving you the BEST"

And I always believed that best was yet to happen to me. I kept waiting for; waiting for the best. It was not easy. There were countless nights slept on wet pillows. As it was mentioned in "Turning 30", I tried many haircuts and lost my pretty hair. But throughout every day of my life, there was one thing I tried keep doing - to smile. There were people who fell in love with my smile. But I knew that it was not "The Best" that was to happen to me. As I see the Facebook status of some friends of me, who sound to be going through the same series of incidents, I would say, "hang on and keep smiling" because I know that is how we have to get over, though it is the most difficult thing to do.

I still remember getting up one day, realising something was going to happen to me soon. I sensed it - which I still do not understand how. This is the day my new friend first had a chat with me in Facebook! I wrote a note on Facebook the very same day, because I still sensed that something special was there, ready to be happened to me. I didn't know what it was, but I was waiting for it. I cleaned up my heart so that it would have no trouble getting in. I kept my eyes dry, so that I could easily smile when it arrives. This was "The Secret" I learnt through Rhonda Byrne's book which I still cherish as my book of guide.

And - Here I am today, married to that new amazing friend who came into my life so sudden, bringing loads of love than I ever could imagine. Someone would say it has happened all of a sudden, but I would say no. He and I have been getting ready to love each other for a long time, not knowing who the other one is. You call it luck, you call it destiny... but I call it LIFE. Life as I always believed of. Life which kept me waiting to give me the best.

That sums up my learning about life, about love and about keep smiling =)

If you think you are going through the hardest time in your lives, just remember - "Hard times are difficult to live with, but they surely pass by. So keep smiling, keep you ready to accept the best that life has planned for you"


By D.R. De Silva